I'm sad.
And before you ask, no. There's not a specific reason behind it. I'm totally ok one minute but the next second, I'm broken. My heart breaks so fast and so hard that I'm not longer able to breath. And it seems that the only thing i can do to keep myself together is to grab my chest and wait for the pain to disappear. The anxiety and the agony of feeling completely worthless, so useless hits me so hard that I can't think anymore. In that moment I'm so absorbed in the pain that I'm feeling that I burst into tears without even realizing that I'm in public and embarrassing myself.
I'm sad. But losing my mind is what worries me the most. I'm afraid I might hold it back for so long that one day I'll go mad and it won't be a way back to sanity for me. Am I crazy? Have I already lost my mind?. If then what should I do? Who should I tell?
I'm here writing you because I'm nothing but a selfish human being. Here I am, not thinking about your feelings, not even thinking about you. I'm writing you, because I think you can actually understand my misery and not judge me for it.
